God's Been in the Middle of it ALL

So I decided to take the time to let God minister to me this week. I've set aside this week to listen to nothing but gospel and to not get on facebook. I'm a huge facebook junkie so it's been a little challenging lol. But the music has been so encouraging. And tonight God put two songs in paticular on my mind: "I Worship You" by Mary Mary and "In the Middle" by Smokie Norful. These are two of my favorite songs and every time I hear either one, they really minister to me, especially In the Middle.



Lately, I've been going through a time where I have frequent pity parties. I'm not one to indulge in them much, but when they come I really throw myself into them. Honestly, I've been so frustrated because I want a relationship so bad and yet I realize that it may not be what I necessarily need right now. And then my mother told me one day that you should NEVER want anything as much as you want God. It really put things in perspective for me. But I still felt so horrible because although I understand the truth of her words, it doesn't take away from the desire of wanting that companionship. And that makes me feel guilty. But when I listened to this song, I realized that in all of my pity parties, in me moving on from my past, in me finding things to be excited about again, in me finding a little hope...He's been there for it ALL.

It's amazing because normally I think that the little woes I have is nothing that God would care about. But He cares about EVERYTHING that I feel is important even when I think it's something I shouldn't care about. So now that I've found something to be a little hopeful about again, I pray that no matter the outcome I will remember that God is with me every step of the way. Because although I've been in this standstill for quite some time I know that it's only a matter of time when God will see fit to bless me and fulfill my desire. In the meantime, all I can do is be content in Him.

Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Chirst who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:11-13

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