The Words I Could Never Say Aloud

I love you...no matter how much you hurt me. No matter how much you disappoint...my love still holds strong. What if I said no matter how hard I try I miss you...even now after everything my heart still seems to find room just for you. And yet you're not so exceptional that you don't irritate me to the point that it pisses me off. lol I find it almost unbelievable that even now when it should be crazy for me to even care...my heart can't deny that I'll always care....

Still because of you I push aside any hopes. I love but I don't trust....not even for you can I find it in me to trust what you say is true. In the end all I wanted was your ACTIONS...to prove to me that you cared enough to show me. That's why I've never found it in myself to let go completely.

But I'm determined...to find a true happiness and a complete love...with or without you. So this is it...I love you and you love me but in the end...IT'S NOT ENOUGH.

--> J.Lowe